Friday, November 30, 2007

i know, i know....

yeah...my bloggie tak masuk akal....
so am i....
haha!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

scary...

real exams are coming.....scary!!!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

er....

honestly i don get the point about facebook...kinda boring...
=_="

can this get any worse?

i had terrible flu 2 days ago...went home with a fever...
next day...i had to go to 3 clinics cuz two were out for lunch...da 3rd clinic was empty but the doc wasn't in...while waiting...i watched some spanish show on tv...weird....then doc said i had this n that...and da pack of meds he gave was like a goodie bag...lol
today...mom n sis r going to sunway pyramid...while i hav to wait here again....its starting to get into me now but if i say anything. its probably gonna be another deja vu...so fuck it...i dont care

Friday, November 02, 2007

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

love....





totally....


Glitter Graphics & Comments

halloween!

i know that halloween is totally none of my biz but i just love da idea of getting candies and chocolates...!

well...its nice to get in da mood to dress up like a clown to get free trips to the dentist...
its like so fun!!

if i can celebrate halloween, i'll jz fill my school bag with candies and chocolates plus maybe two big ikea plastic bags or maybe a tesco extra trolley...hehe

but i'll make sure to get some insect rpellent to repel those tiny lil intruders...u know...the ANTS.

ps: i dont really understand the whole halloween idea...so i apologise if i've offended the culture...cuz im jz a candy luva

Halloween

Halloween - Glitter Graphics


Glitter Graphics for Orkut, Myspace, Friendster

Monday, October 29, 2007

my resume

i've officially become a part-time waitress....
working in sunway college...
very low salary but better than nothing right?

main task: WAIT for people

Friday, October 26, 2007

finally! but not really final...

i just finished mock paper....paper 5 is like crap...thinking that topics which came out in the previous test would not come out AGAIN, actually came out again...
=_="

well...that's over...now im totally worrying about the results which is like the main purpose of exams...unfortunately...
boohoo~~
(~.~)

i don't mean to eve's drop but the people behind me are talking loudly about exotic dishes like rats and fetuses....

and so happen...im hungry...but not for those yucky stuffs...hungry for normal food like kuey teow....lol

but as usual im waiting for mr.fashionably late........

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

gimme a break! im stressed!

gosh...life has never been worse than this!
school is so much fun compared to my life that im currently living now.
work work work...wana play, but mind keeps telling me to work...
but however i work also...things r still as trashy as ever...
gosh...i can literally lose my sanity like anytime...
sometimes i just wish i can disappear or just let time stand still while i take a long nap...then mayb i can get some rest...but nooooooo...life has to be LIFE.

i know some people dont like me complaining...so i'll just complain here...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

whatever...

i don't care


i don't wanna know


i don't give a damn


bla bla bla....

Thursday, October 11, 2007

wat da.......

wats wrong with friendster???
i can't login!!!!
ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you....

i know u're stalking me...u're just ONE computer away from me...

new look and an embarrassing moment

i totally re-colored my bloggie...haha
anyway raya holis just started...
maybe goin back to my hometown in ipoh...
hello white coffee n yummy food!!
especially 'tai kau min'!! [some kind of chinese delicacy which has a really yummy nut filling...
i was unable to hav it for da past 3 visits to ipoh!!!
so sad....
:(
and i really dread the traffic and all the homework piling up...
waiting for me to finish up...
if i see them undone...
it's like some inner voice in my head or...
the hw callin me out...
"stef...do ur hw....do ur hw...."
=_='''
mock exam coming...
which makes it even worse!
well...other than that...
i got a credit in msian studies which was a 'phew' for me...haha

yeah...a few days ago...my hp literally 'flew' away....
i was sliding it but somehow in someway...
it flew right out of my hand and hit the leg of a table and flew back to the bookstore entrance...
its still alive...[thank God]....but it was kinda embarrassing....
DUH!!!

Monday, October 08, 2007

Face Down in the dirt...it doesn't hurt!

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone
and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now
as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down,
a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever,
you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and
say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now
as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down,
a new life she has found.
Face down in the dirt,
she said,
"This doesn't hurt",
she said,
"I finally had enough."[x2]
One day she will tell you
that she has had enough
it's coming round again.
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now
as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down,
a new life she has found.[x2]
Face down in the dirt,
she said,
"This doesn't hurt",
she said,
"I finally had enough."

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Sally

there's a girl who's living a life just like everyone else. she's ok with herself for who she is but after she joined the army, she couldn't fit in. everyone was bigger n tougher than her and it made her feel weak, useless and crappy. every nite she thinks about her friends at her hometown, jamaica. the days when she just laid back at the beach and drinking coconut juice with her friends are all long gone,but she just went with the flow, by training herself up to her own capability to be as tough as the others, she tried her best to be what she is. struggling but still surviving. she may not be the best but she's still somewhere around the corner.

i wish

i wish i can go back in time n just stay in my secondary school years...
n never come out...
now i known im dead wrong...i so freakin miss my school years...especially my bestest best friends....
life is so f*cked

this is a fake

im so happy!!
my pt 2 is gonna be so great cuz i can feel it!
i totally nailed every question in every paper and i just can't wait to see myself alive in acca!!
hooray!!
OMGosh...im so freakin happy....yay!!!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

here but not really here

today during t5...i was in class, concentrating...but eventhough i was paying attention...but somehow i feel like i wasn't...
though my usual can't-wait-to finish-class feeling was there...but it all felt different this time...

besides that, PT2 is too near PT1!!!!!!
too little time...too lil mood to study!!!!!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

er...yeah....

Not a Jealous Bone in Your Body

You're secure, trusting, and giving with friends and lovers
And while you may have been hurt before, you've bounced back
You're generally happy with your life - and no one's grass is greener than yours
One word of caution: some may see your lack of jealousy as indifference!

yay!!!

You Are Not a Cheapskate

When it comes to money, you're very fair.
You're generous when you can be, and you never cheat anyone out of what they deserve.
If you have the money, you enjoy splurging. But you never overspend.

waaa....

You Are Most Like Scarlett Johansson

“One of the best things for a woman to hear is that she is sexy.”

hehe...i admit that

You Are 60% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie.
You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

chocolate...yum~~~

You Are Chocolate Caramel Kiss Lip Gloss

Saying that you're one of a kind is ... well ... an understatement.
You're unusual, quirky, wacky - and you love to challenge people.

And you are a total trendsetter. Your friends are quick to copy your fashion and music tastes.
Which is why chocolate caramel is your perfect flavor. It's as rare and outrageous as you are.

so true...hahaha

Your Lust Quotient: 59%
You are definitely a lustful person, but you do a good job of hiding it.Your friends would be surprised to know that your secretly very wild!

Tagged

Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly. At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names. NO TAG BACKS.

my weird habits....

1. i sniff a napkin which i have since im a baby

2. peel the hard parts of the skin on my toe till its skinless

3. talk to my soft toys

4. peel other's skin on the finger

5. talk to myself

6. hate to look into the mirror alone cuz scared of extra images

7. food gets stuck in my teeth all the time cuz of some gaps due to my small mouth

8. i can't live without tissue

9. my brain works slower when i hav flue

10. stare blankly


now, i tag victor!!

cuz i duno who else to tag cuz they've already been tagged...
=_="

Reality

just when i wish that life is like a fairy tale...

here, i hear stories bout backstabbing, calling names n all those stuffs...kinda immature, based on my perspective...

i mean, u're 18 this year, u want freedom, u want popularity, u want friends, away from parental control...but its da responsibility that some of us neglect...whether its da responsibility on ourselves, work, family and friends...

so...a lil advice...
just be an adult n take responsibility for your own actions...
don't go talking behind people's back and rumour and gossip...its a work of the weak...
investigate the truth before u make a conclusion...

>Peace<

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

4.10p.m.

  • having headache
  • sweater smells like cigarettes
  • bored
  • worried bout paper 5
  • worried bout paper 6
  • thirsty
  • so near yet so far from my bebe
  • cold fingers
  • regretting my last question on paper 4
  • hating my level of intelligence
  • happy with my new freindster layout
  • envying the looks of some really hot chick

hehe...best ever....

im happy cuz now my friendster profile is so nice!!!!
lol

The Worst Monday ever.....

yesterday...a monday was my first progess test for paper 3...not only did my bank recons didn't balance...but as i left for my car parked in the college car park, some guy reverse into my car...resulting much fear n panic on me that i just screwed up every procedure that im supposed to take during an accident...luckily that guy was an honest fella cuz we met up today to discuss the payment for the damages...of course my mom showed up to deal with him...so...im just sittin in da library typing all this out...haha
well...i needed a break after paper 4 just now...can't believe myself....when i passed up da question paper only i realised there was a QUESTION 4...im so stupid....

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Damn Regret....

puttin my life (hair life) in the hands of a hairdresser who looked like she just woke up from her sleep was one of the biggest mistakes i've ever done in my life....
dammit...
cuz rite now...it's just so hard to look in da mirror!!!!
I SO SCARE MYSELF!!!!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

wat PT?

"PT?? wat PT??"

haha....that phrase totally freaked my boy out...lol
nothing much bout me as usual...same old stuffs in life...bla bla bla...
other than translating my chinese name directly into englis...
which is Stop The Beautiful Basket......

yeah...that's what i do for a living...nothing....except studying...i think......

Monday, August 13, 2007

Fear

after watching a video tape which caught a real ghost on the camera....its just so hard to sleep at nite!!!!

bored.....................



candid shots....





















a teddy candle which i bought from korea 4 years ago...cute eh...

Monday, July 30, 2007

wut??

i logged into my blog in college n now everything is in japanese....

help........

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

so sad...HAHA

i only got 200+ people who visited my blog...so sad...lol

eerie....

on the first night on my granma's death...
i was sitting in front of her casket alone...it was pass midnight..
then i suddenly smelt a really pleasant fragance...but it was just a second...i tried catching that smell again...but only smelt the drain...some believe that this sudden fragrance means that the presence of the deceased is around...

anyway...she's a loved one..so no worries...lol

R.I.P. Granma

my paternal granma just passed away last sunday...was my first time attending a funeral...and honestly, i didn't know how to react...
we stay far apart...only meeting during chinese new year and school holidays..
we miss complaining bout her cooking and complaining bout her messy room...
but all we have now are memories of our beloved granma...
i used to be proud telling that both granparents from my mom's n dad's side are still around...
now its gonna be a different story...

Saturday, July 14, 2007

wishes of a big fat pig

have u ever wondered what a big fat pig would wish for??

to be as skinny as a twig....

why?

cuz society nowadays are just more attracted to twigs than pigs...

poor Babe...

the piggy that brought the cute fame to all piggys around the world...

Friday, July 13, 2007

New Found Glory - I DONT WANNA KNOW

I don't wanna know
i don't wanna know
your eyes were covered in sunglasses
when they first met my eye
i sat there and stared at you
you didn't seem to mind
the awkward ways we meet
first comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
what will happen next
i don't wanna know
i don't wanna know
i never cared how i dressed before
but i cared that night
anticipation ran through my bones
and my clothes never fit right
i can't wait 'til we meet again
first comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
what will happen next
i don't wanna know
i don't wanna know
framed pictures start to be put on the walls
constant visits while im out on the road
its hard to leave sometimes
but you know where i lay my head at night
first comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
what will happen next
i don't wanna know
i don't wanna know

Tragic...

Another Tragic case of feeling







Bruised & Broken
But I'm Still Waiting For A Good Day

CoMpliCated

Boys are so COMPLICATED!!!!

GIRLS are so VULNERABLE!!!


im just COMPLAINING




***IGNORE ME***

Thursday, July 12, 2007

FaKe

you walk down the corridor,
like you're on the catwalk,
maybe a catwalk for drag queens,
showing off what you don't have,
under those tight tops and mini skirts,
guess you paid too much for too little cloth,
paid too much for the worst designs,
and brag aloud about your stunning fashion sense,
that gives me an eyesore whenever i take a glimpse,
swinging your hair all around,
making it snow in summer,
your accent is so fake,
your name sounds even worse,
faking an identity of paris and nicole,
making such a scene with the guys,
oh look the plastics are here,
ready to fake it all up,
you label everybody you see,
you only say hi to the hot and cool labels,
you can definately be the epitome of dumb blondes,
seeing a fake like you can be so amusing sometimes.

I'm Not Me

felt so terribly different,
all my words don't sound the same,
my smiles feel crooked,
everything about me just isn't the same,
whenever im with them,
miss my old pals,
miss those days when i used to be me,
now im just a fake,
faking an image,
cuz everybody around me is too good,
while i feel like an idiot,
i used to be so crazy,
but now i feel like a controlled freak,
everybody judges everybody too easily,
feels so damn uncomfortable,
when they look at you with a smirk,
whispering and labelling,
gossips and stares,
don't they have anything else better to do?

I'm a Mess

got my head stuck in a whirlpool,
can't remember what i did a minute ago,
but im not getting old,
maybe just slightly jaded,
but who the hell cares?

just messing myself up,
in the neatest way that you've ever seen,
with duct tape and scissors,
just gonna have some fun with it,
with me, myself and i.

lost my diary again,
thought i saw it at a garage sale,
but who wants to know bout me,
its all bla bla bla,
my words are too small,
and all over the place,
u need a map more than a magnifying glass.

had nightmares on my first date,
can't remember what i did,
cuz now its all about hate,
too bad it all had to end up like this,
but life still goes on,
cuz i'm still inhaling and exhaling.

wonder when i'll ever get out,
locked up in a cell with only rats as my friends,
im no cinderella,
but just a normella,
whatever it is,
there's nothing special bout me,
cuz I'M A MESS

weird....

u said u're sleeping...but new posts keep popping up in ur blog...weird....

if u can't sleep...can't msg me is it? 1sen only wert....weird....

:/

Things that will make you go "shit..."

-ants crawling from the computer desk onto me and just continues crawling
-being hungry at 1am while im on a diet
-wondering why im still awake at 1am
-missing my dear
-unable to see my dear tomorrow...so sad!
-not being able to drive alone!! [argh...]
-homework
-LAN studies
-boredom
-pestering siblings
-bad line coverage
-low hp credit
-chocolate-less
-money-less
-my cooking
-road bullies
-smokers
-scabs
-scars
-my short hair
-somebody else's fart
-somebody else's burp
-break ups
-baby fatS
-planning what to wear
-planning what to eat at HOME
-financial planning
-nagging parents
-pimples
-oily skin

that's about it for now...lol...im ultra bored!

Misled Friendster User

yeah...there's a person i know who is a total misled fella in friendster...

personally, i use friendster to just keep in touch with the people i know...but this person, she's just simply adding people out from no where just to 'fill' her friends list....sounds really sad eh...

i know...i did explain to her...hopefully she'll get something in that lil head of hers...

MT Law

Einstein came up with E = mc^2,

but according to the Mei Teng's Law,

Parents = Unfair fun suckers

Definition: The 2 individuals known as parents can promise you all the fun of everything and suddenly turn around and take it back and claim it as "I CHANGED MY MIND"

Example: Scenario 1

One fine tiring afternoon due to 7 hours of brain cracking classes, while driving back with my mom [yes, im still on Parent Probation], dear mom finally said that she allowed me to drive ALONE on friday. Of course, i was more than excited, happy and EXCITED.

Then the next day.....the next HORRIBLE day, i mean....she said " I don't think you're ready to drive alone...i thought you can handle it but i was ASLEEP, that's why i didn't notice your driving"

*****IT FELT LIKE THE LOUDEST, HARDEST *PIAK* ON MY FACE*****



then i asked myself, "Turning 18 this year eh...SO???"

Monday, July 09, 2007

woohoo!!!!!

finally!!!!
i finally changed my friendster background!!!
yay!!!!


i know i sound silly...ignore me....

:p

im back...

i've been missing from here for quite some time...hehe
anyway im back...and started new sem...sleepy as usual as classes start at 8am...torturing...
i might look all concentrated in front of da lecturer...but inside my head is like da wind....
haha...

anyway nothing much lately....just doin same stuffs...studying n having fun...

love my bum bum....

dunno wat else to type....

bla bla bla......

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Full Moon

during the full moon...there are some superstition and beliefs that some people would go extra cuckoo during that night...more babies are born...creepier than creepy things will happen and all sorts of stuffs....

but for me....




something different did happen to me.....







during this full moon....



no...i didn't give birth to triplets....






but im just super shopaholic today....lol

smack little people

yeah...somebody is gonna 'smack little people' tomoro at a temple...

its not like she's gonna smack kids or vertically challenged people or anything like that but she's gonna smack some backstabbers with slippers, clogs or shoes...even a big piece of fat pork...superstitionly....of course.....

smack little people is a direct translation from cantonese...go figure

the countdown

the countdown......


















to the next semester....


















of horror.......


















classes at 8am....

























til 6pm latest....


























paper3,





















paper 4,






















paper 5,




























finally.....



























the mother of all worst nightmares............































paper 6.....

























daddy of all nightmares still to come....

sickly 'cute'....or 'tau kei'

while helpin my sis to hunt for friends for her friendster [pathetic isn't it]...i saw MANY MANY pictures of girls making puffy monkey faces with those V signs punching holes into their cheeks...

this made me wonder whether its da trend that influenced them to be something that they're not just to be IN this sickly pop culture or is that their true gestures that signifies themselves....
cuz if those gestures shows their true identity..then almost 50% of malaysia has the same identity...lol

well...i might sound like i hav totally nothing to do but it just crossed my mind...

~PEACE~

Friday, June 29, 2007

Birthday presents.....and my dead watch...

one month away and counting...mom gave me rm100 to spend for my b'day...and i've been spending it on clothes....i love clothes!!!
clothes clothes clothes.....
i need a watch too...last one died...bye bye cute killer teddy watch...you'll be missed...she's been with me for a very long time...i even took her along to my NS camp...so much memories...*sob sob*


that's why i need a new one...i feel naked without my watch...

All the noise.....

i get scolded and nagged by my mom in the car more than i get at home...well...its a normal thing to happen for a newly crowned P driver...i can drive but da noise making machine can really scare all my concentration away and turn me into a hot dish for road bullies...dammit

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

tragedy up ahead

just got my new class timetable and it ain't pretty...im gonna so suffer the soul outta me...back to those busy days when i feel like not continuing ACCA...lol
i hate flu and my blocked nose...its suffering and noisy...
right now im only excited bout my driving cuz i finally got my P licence...yipee!
then maybe me and my sis can go for a joy ride....to mcdonalds...haha

Monday, June 25, 2007

holiday blues

Most of my friends will say "wah, so lucky ar you...having holiday now..." well..on my opinion...it gets kinda boring when everyday is like this...

wake up>> wash up>> breakfast>> read newspaper>> watch tv>> lunch>> watch tv>> cook dinner>> eat dinner>> bath>> watch tv>> sleep...

i miss those days when i can actually have school holidays along with my sisters cuz when im having my exams, they're on holiday and vice versa...and cuz of this, i can't go anyway for holiday...though im gonna be 18 this year but independence is not really something that my parents are willing to give me yet...besides driving...

Friday, June 15, 2007

Bring Him Home

sitting outside at his doorstep
waiting for him to come home
looking at da time at every minute that passes by
wishing that his car would be at the porch on time
then i started having thoughts
that the promise wasn't kept
he probably chucked it somewhere in the back seat
but something keeps telling my mind that
he's on the way back
so i waited a little longer

it's already six in the morning
where could he be?
a million missed calls but still not one answer
what the hell is going on?
i don't wanna be the last one to know
my eyes are already tired from all those tears
so i fell asleep on the couch
but my eyes are still wide open
worried, cold and tired from that sleepless night

i said a prayer to bring him back
safe and sound in one piece
i can't bear another second without him
i miss him too much
so can you please bring him back home to me
i need my boy by my side
there's still so much that i need him to know

my bad habitS

top 5 bad habits:





5. sniffing my napkin which i had since i was born









4. claiming every chocolate product in the house as mine and NOT for my sisters










3. eating while studying (in the kitchen...too muct food...too much temptation...too much choices...)









2. sneezing at my SISTERS







1. PEELING MY SKIN!! [hot peeling spots: around toe nails & finger nails]

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Unfair

can u hear me callin out to you?
the memories of us are probably playing in your mind,
have you ripped my name out of your heart?
or is it already tattooed in there,
do you see me everywhere?
do you still cry during lonely nights?
are you puting on fake smiles everyday,
to show everybody that you're ok.

there's already no turning back now,
all that we had have all disappeared,
i've already moved on in my own path,
i hope you're doing fine in your own world,
i know God is looking after you,
cuz i can't be the one anymore,
life is unfair,
we both know it but that's just the way it is.

Monday, June 11, 2007

New Love

told myself to not be afraid,
let him come in and show you new things,
be prepared to be hurt,
be prepared for a new love,
it's been awhile since someone new touched my heart,
its been sometime since i loved someone this much.

i let you in,
and you gave me all that i needed,
we've been through quite a lot,
we've cried and laughed together,
so please don't leave and stay a little longer.

it hurts to be away from you,
it kills me whenever i can't see you,
i die a little more when i don't even get to hold you tight,
wish that i can be there for you,
wish you can show me the true love within you.

my heart is too fragile now,
its been broken and mended so many times,
im afraid that she can't last that long,
so please please take good care of her,
cuz she can just fall apart anytime.

HolidaYyY

exam stress and numerous pimples are finally over! though im still recovering from da pimple phase...
yes...and i passed those two freakin papers...hehe
though im not as good as those i-can-90%-&-above-EASILY classmates but still...i passed...so im safe..
anyway holidays just started but still have that stupid LAN stuffs to do...but if it wasn't for this project...i'll be rotting at home...so in a way...this stupid thing is somwhow rather good...weird..
next semester will be havin 4 papers...even the thought of it is so scary...
too bad can't see my tan tan :( miss u so badly...

Friday, June 01, 2007

stupid hp!!!

my memory card actually...i think da stupid hp seller gave me some cheaplak memory card...its already da 2nd time that it;s goin nuts...dammit...and da worst thing bout it is all da stuffs inside are gone!!! including photoes n songs!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

HELP

is there like an NGO or some government orginazation which i can complain bout UNromantic bfs???
lol

shit....

failed my mock exam paper 1...and a bigger possible feeling that i'll fail paper 2 cuz i totally sucked in it...i had a really bad headache after da test last saturday....don't think i can take it anymore...why did i join CAT in the first place??!!!
AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, May 18, 2007

My Happy Ending

gosh...2 months of foolishnes just passed me by, boxed and labelled 'My Happy Ending Pt.3'
well, lesson learnt...and thanks to that phase, i've learnt another chapter of 'Guys'...
whatever...guess to some people, im just another human being with some empty soul that has a heart which can be kicked around like a football...
recently, i read da news, about a boy who beheaded his mom, listened to Rap music b4 he turned himself in to da police...
guess punk rock ain't that bad after all...

here's a dedication to 'you know who' by avril...

So much for my happy endingOh oh, oh oh, oh oh...Let's talk this overIt's not like we're deadWas it something I did?Was it something You said?Don't leave me hangingIn a city so deadHeld up so highOn such a breakable threadYou were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could be[Chorus:]You were everything, everything that I wantedWe were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost itAnd all of the memories, so close to me, just fade awayAll this time you were pretendingSo much for my happy endingOh oh, oh oh, oh oh...You've got your dumb friendsI know what they sayThey tell you I'm difficultBut so are theyBut they don't know meDo they even know you?All the things you hide from meAll the shit that you do [CD version]All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]You were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could be[Chorus]It's nice to know that you were thereThanks for acting like you caredAnd making me feel like I was the only oneIt's nice to know we had it allThanks for watching as I fallAnd letting me know we were done[Chorus x2][x2]Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...So much for my happy endingOh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
~Peace~

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Zombie

me + eyeliner = zombie

lol....

WhateveR...

some ppl are just so fussy with their blogs...its not a matter of life & death yet they can make such a big deal bout it...lol

Sunday, May 06, 2007

[ Nobody ]

nobody knows what the hell is goin on,
too busy being what they're not,
undiscovered and unknown in this life,
hiding in the safest place in their temporary selves,
knowing that the world is an evil place,

nobody can be trusted,
cuz they'll just use you up and throw you away,
then hunt for a new one to replace you,
this cruel world has fake happy people,
to deceive and convince you,
about the so-called happiness in life,
that has never existed at all,

nobody'll pick you up when you're down,
they might promise to save you,
but at the end,
its self-satisfaction to feed their hungry souls,
to see you drown in all your mistakes,

we all live in pain,
in and out it can be felt all over,
nobody'll be there for you,
nobody'll save you,
just you to save yourself...

Saturday, May 05, 2007

All Black by Good Charlotte

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like The Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

Like the night that we met, all black
Like the colour of your dress, all black
Like the seats in my Cadillac
I used to see red, now it's just all black

As long as I could remember I dreamed in black and white
As I grew up and the sun went down, I never felt more alright
My mother she use to tell me: Son you better get to church
It's a dark, dark world and it's evil out there and you know it's only getting worse
Yeah, I've never been much for weddings or anniversaries but
I go to a funeral if I'm invited any day of the week
Some people say that I sound strange, some say that I'm not right
But I find beauty in this world every single night

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like The Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

Like the night that we met, all black
Like the colour of your dress, all black
Like the seats in my Cadillac
I used to see red, now it's just all black

I sat down at her table at the end of the night
She was having black coffee and a cigarette, she wasn't wearing white
She said, people tell me that I'm strange, they say that I am not right
She said, the only time I feel alive is in the dead of night
I think I found the one for me

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like The Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

Like the night that we met, all black
Like the colour of your dress, all black
Like the seats in my Cadillac
I used to see red, now it's just all black

I remember feeling so alive
The night I looked into her eyes

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like The Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

Like the night that we met, all black
Like the colour of your dress, all black
Like the seats in my Cadillac
I used to see red, I used to see red

Take a look at my life (all black)
Take a look at my life (all black)
Take a look at my life (all black)
All black, all black
Take a look at my life (all black)
Take a look at my life (all black)
Take a look at my life (all black)
All black, all black, all black, all black, all black



*this song rocks

Friday, May 04, 2007

sick

im so in pain now....ulcer and most probably throat infection....can't eat in peace...sad.........not only that but not enough sleep....
next tuesday i'll be havin class from mornin till nite....boohoo

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

My Birthday/Wish List

I know it's a bit early but if u fail to plan, u plan to fail...hah

-MONEY
-new pair of specs
-lifetime supply of chocolate
-teddy bear soft toys
-the ability to walk in high heels
-reunion party with my sabah NS friends
-a whole face & body makeover
-LONG HAIR
-scented candles
-a mechanic pencil that belongs to Me and not my sis'
-[P] licence
-the freedom to drive on my own [carefully]
-mascara
-lip gloss
-black color clothes
-cherries from aus
-gucci handbags
-body glove or converse slingbags
-nike shoes
-fishnet stockings
-eyeliner
-chocolate buffet
-chocolate ice cream cake
-laptop
-ipod
-dark eye circles cream
-GOOD COMPLEXION
-parents' permission to hav bf

[to be continued....]

Koala

A purple koala bear...
cute isn't it?
its my soft toy which my relative got me from some game she won..maybe i was too adorable and because of that, she couldn't resist me...she HAD to give it to me...bwahahahaha

Deep Fried Squids & A Pig

Indeed...a very tempting dish...so tempting that it made me wake up with a bad sore throat...dammit
Yesterday we travelled all the way to hulu langat for seafood which is considered near compared to last week's destination at port klang...our family has this sorta food hunt thingy...travelling miles just for new food...which explains the formation of my tummy...lol
food expeditions are done once in awhile but why did we do it again this week?
Thanks to my uncle, of course...the cocky-obnoxious-single-30-year-old-pig...he gobbles everything on the table within shortest time possible..no wonder he's still single...Da worst experience with him was at a restaurant in pj..he, his gf & my family went out for dinner...his gf's dish came first & in disbelief, he took her chopsticks and started eating her food although he claimed to be "tasting"...sick....
Even my mom told me that if i ever get a guy like that...better think twice...*im watching u vic*
haha...

Monday, April 30, 2007

Welcome!

Welcome all to my blog...

A lil bout myself here..
My name is Stef from KL and i'll be legal to do many stuffs by the end of july!! haha...studying at SYUC..eldest kid of 3 gurlzz...love chocolates, music, friends & fun...

anyway, that's all for now..

Cya