Wednesday, November 28, 2012

"What has become of me?"

Sometimes I lay everything out and look at every part of my life right now.
I wonder about the decisions I've made.
Estimate the consequences.
Then, I wonder what my future will be like.
I love to think and wonder about what's in for me in the future, but I hate wondering too far ahead.
There's so many long term goals craved but it's the short term goals that seem to make better sense and doable.
Maybe I'm afraid of disappointments. I am.

Many times I've planned out certain things to happen in life.
But somehow they just don't turn out the way I want.
After a few years, I'd look back and ask myself this question, "What has become of me?"
It's a question I often ask myself.

Maybe it's life that has thought me many things about what to expect from life itself.
One of them is that life is full of surprises and we have to be adaptable to new situations all the time.
If you made a mistake, learn.
Move forward and never look back.

I still don't understand how people always blame life whenever things don't work out.
At the end of the day, who's life that sucks?
You probably brought it upon yourself.
That's why I always say - life is not complicated, people are.

But what if you're seeing the possible signs of a possible mistake, what are you gonna do?
Are you gonna back out or stay on and try to fix it?
Backing out seems like the most cowardly thing to do.
But if you choose to stay on, how long are you gonna try?
I remember what my friend told me, "why try fixing something that's already broken?"
People tend to hold on to a hope even though at the back of their mind, they know that its obsolete.

At times like these, you just do what you have to do and bear with the consequences.
Let's just hope that there's a silver lining or some sort.


Currently playing:


No one can see anything on the other side of me

Can I break away 
Push me away, make me fall, 
Just to see, another side of me.


Sunday, November 25, 2012

Same mistakes


Sometimes I wish I could retract some things done and words said.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

The life lived

Fuck yeah, give it to me 
This is heaven 
What I truly want 
Is innocence lost? 
Innocence lost?

So many dumb ways to die

Currently this is my favourite song that's always playing in my head.
The video is super adorable too!
Really brightens up my day :D
My favourite one would be the one who swallowed super glue.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Brain Overload

Sometimes, or most of the times, I tend to think too much of a situation.
It may be not as complicated as it is but I tend to over think.
I guess its normal for girls to over think a situation.
I'm not the only one.
It's just human nature and a well known fact about females.

But really, over thinking can be frustrating.
It makes me feel insecure and not confident about an event or about someone.
Because the possibilities are existent, that's why you think about it.
Although it may not pop into the other person's brain but it is there in mine.
So what can I do?
Tell my brain to shut up?
It's frustrating indeed.

If only there is a setting for my brain's level and depth of thinking.
Hmm...