I don't expect anyone to understand why I'm awake at this hour, worrying, crying..
Mainly because it is not happening to them.
People can never be truly empathetic if they have never gone through that situation before.
Some may think that I'm overreacting or I have bad control over my emotions.
But who are you to judge if you've never been in my shoes?
Another lesson I've learnt during this period is that you know where you stand in other people's lives.
How important you are to them, it all shows now.
It sucks to know where you actually stand in reality as compared to what they say.
But I guess this is reality.
This is what's really happening.
It may be hard to accept but its something that I have to live with.
This makes me wonder why people bother so much about getting attention from others when the world is so selfish?
I mean what's the point really?
So after this eye opener, I think it's always best to just keep everything to myself. It's better that way. I always feel that there's no use sharing information which are of no benefit to the other party. I mean, why would they care? Why bother listening to redundant words?
Like I always say, depend on yourself is always better as you will never disappoint yourself. At least you know what you're thinking and you know what's best for you.