Monday, August 25, 2008


this week PT but haven't really studied anything yet...lazy, distracted or whatever you can say..but all i know now is that i have enough problems being burdens on my shoulders and i don't need might seem like a small problem to you cuz you wouldn't understand what im going through in my shoes...

yeah, everybody has problems...

so maybe i shouldn't mention it cuz its a waste of time..

Don't envy others cuz you might be too blind to see what's in front of you that you already have.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Im not playing with my food....

its a work of art....

Too Cheezy

initially, this bottle was FULL of cheese

where did it go???

there was more than just a slice a go figure where all the cheese went....

what a week...

this week was totally full of action-packed, non-stop, exciting stuffs...

well, not really that wowwy...but still...

this week, i've been to sunway pyramid about 3 times and one time to subang parade...which was spontaneously planned...

just walked around aimlessly..went to a cd shop and sometimes lil o me tends to do the unexpected, like looking at some colorful CD without knowing its much wanted by someone else...however, he saw it and got it eventually..

and sometimes i can have this 6 sense thingy like i can predict which is the next shop that person is going to...haha...
me? i go into any shops...randomly...

toy'r'us...what i really liked in there was the Wall-E and Eve toys cuz they sang, move and awesome!!!

Eve's eyes can are the best cuz the lights move according to her response and its just so sweet!!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Second Serenade

im crazy over this song now - Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Perfect boyfriend

• Give her your hoodie even if you go to different schools.
• Give her a big t-shirt of yours to sleep in.
• Leave her cute text messages.
• Kiss her in front of your friends.
• Tell her she looks beautiful.
• Look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• Let her mess with your hair.
• Just walk around with her.
• Forgive her for her mistakes.
• Look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• Hold her hand when you're around your friends and in private.
• Let her fall asleep in your arms.
• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• Watch her favorite movie with her.
• Come up and grab her by the waist.
--Remember this:
• Don't talk about other girls around her. If you love her, others shouldn't matter.
• When she's sad, hang out with her.
• Let her know she's important.
• Kiss her in the pouring rain.
• When you fall in love with her, tell her.
• And when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.
• Answer her phone calls no matter what.


in reality, YOU WISH!

cuz if you believe in all this, means you're watching too much tv...
if these kind really exist, they're out for your money...


what day is today?

for a moment there, i thought today was monday...blur me~
(its actually thursday)

yesterday at home, i baked pastries!

phyllo pastry to be exact...its sorta like those danish pastries you can find in Delifrance...

the pastry was topped with custard and peaches...

some had fillings of chocolate, peanut butter, berries and bananas...

it was a success cuz the last time i made turned out like yellow milk...ewww....

mom loved it...she ate while saying,

"mm~yummy~~i don't mind if you quit ACCA and open a bakery" not quitting!!
i would love to own a bakery but not now...maybe when im about to retire...haha

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

hate hate hate it

i hate waiting...

but what am i doing??



*angry angry*

what it's like..

what is it like

to be seen through
like you're invisible

feelings are there
but ignored

thinking that everything is ok
but all is chaotic inside

forced to agree
but denied to say no

trying to escape
but clutches too tight

struggling inside
with all the pain to bear

i want to run
run away
away from you

wee waa~~~

results came out yesterday...thought of putting all ACCA mails under Spam...haha
but no, i didn't..

yesterday's most terrifying moment,

i know the people who know me well would know that i kinda have this delayed-reaction thingy...cuz i started to worry 30minutes before the class break given to check results...
cuz some silly dong told me not to sign the register first in case we fail and have to defer...

keyed in my id n password on the ACCA website, clicked Login and immediately covered my eyes with my cold shaking hands...wait for 3rd parties reaction then only i opened my eyes to see...haha

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and thank God, i passed all 3 just one attempt..
i bet yesterday was like the most religious day and all Gods were like super duper

anyway, im glad that my parents are happy and my grandma's wish to see me graduate came true...*phew*

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those who made it...congrats!

those who didn't..all the best and don't give up k...look ahead and do your best~!
we'll always be there for u..

and what i noticed in the midst of boredom,

some guys really smell

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Chinese Calligraphy The After Effect

what do i do after doing chinese calligraphy?
BODY ART by yours truly...
on my sisters' hands.....

Captain Banana Pants

sounds silly?
its from a cartoon called Camp Lazlo...

anyway, i got to watch Wall-E..the sad romantic robot...
but what's uncool is the 6 hours tax class on a SATURDAY!

time has passed but whether it'll all get better in questionable...cuz probably more time is needed...

im more of a Big Apple Donuts consumer but few days ago, had J co. and tried out the pizza donut which was so so yummy...cuz i like cheese... :9
the choco mint & choco banana were nice too...

on the way to Pyramid, there was a stray cat sleeping in the middle of the sidewalk and when we came back, it was still sleeping there. At first i thought it was dead but then i decided to tempt it with a biscuit and immediately it woke up and started nibbling on the biscuit...haha...a good deed a day...better than dead cat in the middle of the sidewalk...

results coming...just hoping for the best for me and everybody else...

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Question of the day

I'm sure there are a few of u who have already tried my choco brownies...

if i were to start selling them...

would people actually wanna buy them to eat???

pls leave some comments so i can consider...hehe

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

is it?

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Just another day for an ordinary girl

Another day, another monday, another week...basically, another day im just living in..

well, there are some extraordinary things happening but they are mostly things that are just plain f*cked up that there's just no point blogging about.


well, classes are suppose to start at 3pm but im already in college by 8.45am.

what do i do for the next 6 hours and 15 mins??

-do tax homework which is due this saturday...
saturday is a very bad day to hav classes cuz its my sleepin time!!

-listen music


-social networking

-starve for thiness

-trying to keep my eyeliner looking like eyeliner and not looking like smokey eyes (=_=")

-missing Christine & Joey

-thinking of running away on a horse into the sun like in the comwboy movies (with some shades on...haha)

-thinking of what to eat

-look at people walking around with people (cuz im alone...)

last night,
my youngest sis, Adb, age 12, allowed me to reply her classmate's sms and i did.
and that is where all the bullshit happened, on my sis' behalf..

Friend: did teacher scold you for not attending kelas tambahan?
Me: Yeah, she scratched my face and pulled my hair!
Friend: Don't bullshit me.
Me: ok, so she didn't. that is because of my eternal beauty and ultimate
cuteness that she worships.

Friend: OMG!! eternal beauty my foot!
Me: did i mention that im known for my heavenly fragrant feet?
Friend: shadap man!!
Me: well, the Gods above have made me the chosen one of eternal beauty,
ultimate cuteness and heavenly fragrant feet to guide all ugly beings to

Friend:I donwan to talk to u already. Bye


in another story,
have u ever felt like you're kinda fed up with hearing apologies from the same people over and over again everyday?
it kinda gets to u that u just don't wanna hear it anymore.
u just feel like covering your eyes and disappear into a land far far away from here.
tired, frustrated, annoyed, irritated..
oh, it so gets to you, doesn't it?

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in another other story,
pretty people.
gosh, i envy them cuz they just seem to get the best of everything, even the best out of people.

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Sunday, August 10, 2008

Another weekend

Another sad sad weekend...super boring...though i managed to touch my tax achievement for a lazy bum like me... :p

This might sound a bit outdated of me, but last night i watched Kung Fu Panda on DVD with my sis and it was super funny...i liked the part when he imitated the Master with the 2 bowls...haha

But one thing really sucky about today is my dad's bad temper. It's like everything his lil brother says is right and whatever mom says is wrong. His bro was suppose to meet up for lunch with us but didn't turn up. Apparently he was at his gf's place and didnt even informed us about him being late. And for us, we waited for 2 hours for that dumb sh*t in hunger.
Mom called him up and gave him a piece of her mind which he really deserves.
But dad didn't like what my mom did and scolded her but she didn't care cuz she knew that she did nothing wrong.

Dad is a real jerk. His stupid bro is more important than spending quality time with his family.
And quality time means Sunday only.

Not only that, my Grandpa is also being another pain in the neck.
The adults just keep complaining and talking in such a way that i just wish that i could just disappear.

Sometimes i just feel like not giving a f*ck but i can't cuz they are my family.
As the eldest sis, i gotta voice out sometimes and i kinda worry for my sis who are both gonna have UPSR and PMR. Not really a good environment for them too i guess.

Not only that but other paranoias as well...

oh God....

I really wish i could disappear to Hawaii or

ok...enough of family dramas and bull poop...

entered a lucky draw for Wall's ice cream and guess what we won?

A tiny Moo Moo

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Saturday, August 09, 2008

No More!!!

No more complaints, rants and bla bla blas...

im gonna stop this poop and prove to you that...

im ok

im ok

im ok


After the browni-fied F4 Law class, headed to Pyramid by bus [no need to walk! hahaha...]..wanted to buy some Magic biscuits but.......................

Hmm...then went to Etude House, the new pinkiest girly shop in Pyramid...and somehow somebody who was not supposed to be seen in that shopped was forced to enter it by yours truly and the best part is.....there was a big bunch of witnesses...

Actually, i feel that if a guy actually enters into such a feminine shop with his partner is a very Brave thing to do because most guys don't dare to step in.

Later, watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall. It was really funny but some of the scenes were just inappropriate for me at that moment cuz i'm kinda on a recovering mode and any little thing that goes wrong can completely break that thin thread i'm holding on to.

yeah, emo emo emo...

But emo is an expression of the deepest feelings of a soul in it's true mood...

I really appreciate Chris' advice, they were really helpful but somehow as the person i'm born to be, i took my own actions and the consequences were suffered and why do i make such decisions? only the ones who know me well enough will know cuz they are the ones who understand me most.
The pain was excruciating cuz...

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

That's What You Get

But i suppose Time is the best medicine prescribed for me now.
And of course some additional meds provided by another doc called Dr. Squak.

Friday, August 08, 2008


Too bad no photos of the happy faces who wanted more...
i made chocolate brownies last night and the smell of those fresh babies is like the Smell of Heaven...
However, i didn't expect such an awesome feedback from those who ate it during Law break. The best was seeing Sue Ting 'the chocolate hater' to actually love my chocolate brownies so much that she finished all the crumbs in the box by pouring them all down into her mouth...haha
Poor Joycey couldn't eat that much because of her sorethroat..
But i promise to make again next time cuz i enjoy making it and eating it as well..hehe
hmm...someone suggested me to sell them but maybe I'll take that into consideration when i'm retired or


I'm holdin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I said it's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I'm holdin' on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground.

Thursday, August 07, 2008


Some things in life are meant to happen so that it could be taken as a lesson in life that teaches us to not repeat history.
Unfortunately, some people do repeat their same old mistakes and some even make it into a bigger mistake and then later only regretting it. But somehow, some things are just to late to be regretted about.
Therefore, forgiving such sinners may be hard to do so because pain and despair has been caused, scars have been made and we can't turn back the clock.
To obtain forgiveness, it should be earned the hard way like how hard the pain has been inflicted to the ones who cared and loved.
Nothing is a smooth ride, there are some sweetness and its bitterness along the way, but lately, whatever i've been tasting recently is totally bitter to the core.
Some people just tend to give in into temptations, the seed of evil that the devil has planted in our little souls, thus, neglecting the people around who really cared.
Just to satisfy one's selfish needs can cause so much misery to the the many others around.
People who are strong enough in morality, spirituality and mentality would have the guts to not give in to such evil deeds.
Unfortunately, there are a few weaklings out there.
Not only that, socializing with social garbage a.k.a. amature sluts who have no standards, pride, dignity and probably a brain, are ought to be out on the streets. At least they can get paid while getting laid. They can be too obvious sometimes that it could be accurately predictable of their next move.

If you know what isn't yours, don't take it.

Appreciate what you have before it is gone.

Chances are not easy to get, they are earned.

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

Tag #2

a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says,"Is this okay?"
Lip Gloss - Lil Mama
(fruity lip gloss is okay...)

2. How would you describe yourself?
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
(happy endings only happen in fairy tales not in reality..sadly)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Mr Brightside - The Killers
(optimistic guys...)

4. How do you feel today?
I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace
(i wonder who i hate so much... =_=")

5. What is your life's purpose?
Always All Ways - Lost Prophets
(im very

6. What is your motto?
Long Way 2 Go - Cassie
(haha...currently motto-less)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Stop & Stare - One Republic
(im a daydreamer perhaps...)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift
(teardrops on my pillow got la...)

9. What do you think about very often?
The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani feat Akon
(ways to escape classes...hehehe)

10. What is 2+2?
I Caught Fire - The Used
(my brain on fire??)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Pocketful Of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield
(oh yes, they definately are....JMC!!)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Hard To Say - The Used
(its hard to put feelings into words...)

13. What is your life?
The Disaster - New Found Glory
(how tragic of me......)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Gimme More - Britney Spears
(money $$$$$~~)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
(check his availabilty first before step 2..)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis
(im sure you all will....)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Misery Business - Paramore
(mwahahaha....*evil laugh*)

19. What is your biggest fear?
London Bridge - Fergie
(the sight of it brings chills to my knees...oooO...)

20. What is your biggest secret?
My Humps - Black Eyed Peas
(my assets are Private & Confidential)

22. What will you post this as?
All The Small Things - Blink 182
(haha...nothing big here...)

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Tied Down - Colbie Cailliat
(S&M?! omg~~)

Tuesday, August 05, 2008


im not feeling well...

bad headache....

Monday, August 04, 2008

Nothing is right

out of the blue, a tsunami of problems just drown me eventhough how hard i try to hold on to a coconut tree...i feel like i've been washed away from where i happily was...

seems like every part of my life is in the ditch now...

not only do i have personal problems...
but there seem to be like an endless war between my uncle and my mom over a grandfather who never was a good father...well, serve him right sometimes...cuz during his fatherhood, all he did was drink drink drink...
not only that, my grandma has to suffer with him...she had to sew buttons and clothes to feed the children...
thank goodness she's staying with us now cuz all she does in her old house was argue 24/7 with my grandpa...
there was never a moment that i've seen them in love before...

my paternal grandparents were very much in love but death of my granma due them apart... my life...i've never experience seeing old people in love...

i duno what's gonna happen to me in the future with my dad cuz we do not talk at all...the only conversations we make is him asking me to fetch him toothpicks and tissue...that's all...
yeah...that's my so called Man in my life...

now he's having another issue with some old case...which i only found about it today which kinda shocked me...

i don think i can keep a straight focused mind...but maybe i can put on a smile to get through the day...

yeah, i know i should be grateful that im not as unlucky as some people who have more problems than i do...

well, the worse thing about this phase of my life is im out of reach from my best friend who has always been there for me...

Friday, August 01, 2008


i like Art about Nature...
there's something really peaceful and soothing bout them...

this one below by Vincent Van Gogh called 'Starry Night' is one of the many beauitful paintings i've seen that got me excited about Art...

A Fact Of LIFE

Friends can Fall In Love

House of Law

House of Law...something in F4...
my house is it?

i think its the time of the month...probably that's why i feel shitty nowadays...
its not fun...just depressing...

every little detail bothers me...

even if its not suppose to be a Big deal...
under my magnifying does look like a BIG deal...