Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Don't you worry, child

I guess that advice did give me a sense of understanding and hope.
I do hope that I can overcome my fears and insecurities.
Honestly I believe that everything is fine between us, it's just that I have to fix myself first.
I hope that he can bear with me in this. I know I'm not perfect but I will try to be better than this.
I just need some time to learn and improve.

Actually I did question myself if I made the right decision.
However I never really thought of it that way, where learning to love the person you found can actually be the key to maintaining a relationship.
I guess it changed my perspectives on how I deal with relationships.
I believe I made the right decision by choosing him and all we need is time to learn more about each other.
Starting all over again is something I wouldn't want to experience too many times.
I really hope that he is the one for me.
And I do hope that he will always be persistent to be with me as well.
All I need is hope and faith that everything will fall into place.
I believe that we met for a reason and I'm curious about what is in for us in the future.

Fantastic Monday

Korean food cravings satisfied.
Plus our usual coffee sessions.

Am I with the right partner

Found this on Facebook.
I think it's a really good advice about relationships.
It's something that we all experience in a relationship, the feeling where you wonder if you're making the right decision.
I'm sure we all meet our partners for a reason but sometimes people let go too easily and make another choice too fast without putting much effort to make the current relationship work.
I just hope for the best in my current relationship now. I have faith that God will bless us with love and happiness :)

Hope you enjoy this like I did :)


During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO..

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Love you just a little too much

Baby, I'm a sociopath,
Sweet serial killer.
On the warpath,
'Cause I love you
Just a little too much.
I love you just
A little too much.
Much, much, much.

You can see me
Drinking cherry cola,
Sweet serial killer.
I left a love note,
Said you know I love,
The thrill of the rush.
You know I love,
The thrill of the rush.
Rush, rush, rush.

You send me right to heaven,
Sweet serial killer,
I guess I'll see him over.
Do it for the thrill of the rush,
Love you just a little too much, much.
You send me right to heaven,
Sweet serial killer,
I guess I'll see him over.
I love you just a little too much,
Love you just a little too much, much.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Sunday afternoon

Kickin it back with my bestie on a Sunday afternoon with a nice cup of chocolate goodness.
Doing what we always do and taking it easy.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Words like knives

Some people are just unaware that their words and even their tone can hurt another.
They wouldn't know that there's someone who cares and bothers to ask what's wrong bcos all they know is to shoot them down like they're the one at fault.
If it happens every time, do you think there will be a next?

Wow, what a day

My day started super early today at 6am bcos of an 8am class.
Gosh morning classes are always so draining. Moreover, in formal clothes, I felt like an oddball. -_-
I expected work today was just to attend a meeting just bcos all the supervisors across the country were here.
But once I got there, my manager told me I had to brief them in the meeting as well.
I wanted to die.

The last time I had to speak in front of a big crowd was during the 48 hour film event and I was nervous as fuck. I totally panicked and screwed up. :(

During the meeting, I was nervous at first. But luckily it was only a while.
Somehow I managed to speak!
And I actually know what I was talking about! :D
I even managed to answer some questions. Like I know my shizz...
But I know my weakness is that I talk too fast and I don't really know if I'm explaining well or not.

But this is my first time speaking to a non-student crowd in a professional way and so far so good, I guess. :p
Maybe bcos I'm used to giving presentations in uni. So, I'm sort of prepared for such spontaneous situations.
Yeah this is my first time and I'm thankful to my manager for giving me the opportunity to learn and experience these things.

I remember when I first started working here, I had no idea what I was doing. I was depressed and drained out all the time.
However, things are starting to look bright ahead and I'm really happy. :D

I know I'm a social awkward penguin and I don't talk much to people I don't know. Maybe this might make people think that I'm snobbish but actually I'm just shy.
Ugh, I need to come out from this shell.
But one at a time.

So far, I managed to be confident in speaking in front of a crowd which is a really big achievement for me as of now.

Then, the best part of the day was karaoke night with Joey. I've never sang until I got tired before.
Normally I don't bother singing -.-

It's been a long day indeed..like this post.
Hopefully no one wakes me up tomoro bcos I really need my sleep.

Well, hope u guys had a great day too!

Friday, January 18, 2013

It's all okay

I admit. I'm always a big ball of worry and I over worry every damn thing.
Maybe bcos I'm afraid of potential bad happenings that's why I always try so hard to prevent it or make things right.
But in fact, there was really nothing to worry about because everything is actually okay.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

A weekly thing

Catching up with my besties every week.
What will I be without them? <3

I am better than this

Sometimes we let small matters get to us and affect us.
But is it worth it?
Is it worth being sad over small matters? No.
When I get upset, not only am I unhappy, but it will also affect the people around me.
Therefore, I promise myself not to let it get the best of me.
I won't let small matters steal my happiness away. It's not worth it.
I will not let small matters like these affect me, the people around me and my life.
I want to be the better than this and I believe I can.
Maybe I just need to practice more patience and understanding.
It may take some time but I will make sure that it won't get the best of me because I AM BETTER THAN THIS.

Monday, January 14, 2013


I'm ashamed of what I did.
I dunno whether it's bcos I'm PMSing or what but I feel so low after that. I have a feeling that its most likely PMS.
Cuz I'm a monster when I PMS.
Maybe it's bcos I wanted his attention so badly that I've succumbed to doing silly things like that.
Wish I could have better control of myself.
Wish I was better than this.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Hello 2013, how are you going to be like?

Its another new year and here we are making resolutions that will only last for a week.
That's why I don't bother making them. All I want for this year is to be happy and better than the last.

I asked myself and a few friends, "how can you sum up 2012?"
Some say its shit. Bravo.

As for me, 2012 was the year where I changed a whole fuckin lot.
Even the term 'turning point' might be a little bit of an understatement. Maybe I would describe it as a theme park, which includes all the rides whether they are the thrilling roller coasters, the happy merry-go-rounds, everything.
But it has taught me a lot about life for sure.
How unexpected things can be.
How anything could happen no matter how sure you are.
Maybe it has taught me to be a little bit tougher, more skeptical and more mature, I suppose.
2012 has been a good teacher for me and I'm thankful for that.

Well, people change and so have I.
Looking at myself today as compared to a year ago, there has definitely been a lot of changes.
And we will always be changing throughout our lives.
That's why we must always be adaptable to changes in order to become someone in this era.

Its funny how life works.
Suddenly you're in a rut but somehow there will be a silver lining and if you know how to pick yourself up and head into the right direction, things will work out.
But then again, you can never be too sure of what's in store for us in the future.

This is what I'm curious about for this year actually.
How my life is going to turn out in a year's time.
It's exciting bcos you'll never know what to expect.

One thing to kick start this year is a new belief.
Taking things slow to discover this new relationship.
I guess he has always been here but I never really acknowledge his presence.
Hopefully he will always be watching over me.