Sunday, March 24, 2013

Past vs Present

When a person is filled with negative emotions, it's hard to recall the good memories as comfort at that very moment.
Generally, people would be more focused on current situations than past situations.
That's why making changes in the present would probably be more effective than fully relying on what you did in the past.
And if you expect someone to look back and remember all the things you did all the time, might as well have a nice archiving system or a self-decorated history book.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013


Somehow I've been kinda creeped out by some things that I have seen.
I don't know what to make of it but some people say its a miracle.
But how is that a miracle?
I mean, what do I get from that?
I'm not saying it from a selfish point of view but somehow I just don't understand what's going on.
I need answers.
I can't just see things and just ignore it.

Hmm..I really wanna know why.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

My worth?

Seems like I'm not good enough for anyone.
Whatever I do is wrong in everyone's eyes.
Somehow I'm the one with the problem while everyone else is right.

Guess nobody will ever know how's it like being me because no one has ever walked in my shoes.

Or maybe I just don't belong here.

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Doubts, they come and go

Sometimes I just wish I knew how to control myself and my thoughts.
But its hard to do so when I'm being led by all these unfavoured gestures.
Moreover, words are like knives.
They just come right at me in silence.
I know that I can't change a tiger's stripes.
So I have to accept it as it is.
Even though it really upsets me most of the time.
I wish I knew what to do.
I wish there was a sign that could tell me that I'm making the right decision.
On the other hand, it seems like a really big test for me and my patience.
Somehow I'm just not sure if its worth my time or not.
Even though I put some effort into it, it felt like I just wasted it all as I look at it going down the drain.

One thing for sure is that change is inevitable.
Some things just fade off as time goes by.
Only left now are the memories of the times when things were fresh and every little detail mattered.

Sunday, March 03, 2013

March on.. we are in another month..
More assignment due dates are piling up.
Project 2013 just started.
I miss being too free.

I want my semester break.
I want holidays.
I want good food.
I want coffee.

It's really hard to keep track of everything when there's so many things..

Hmm..procrastination is evil.
Being lazy is even worse.

But hopefully I can get through it.
Need to pass this sem in order to graduate ASAP.

Even though my parents say that there's no rush to graduate, but I want to.
I need this for myself and I shall achieve it.

Somehow I do wonder, what am I gonna turn out to be once I step out into the working world?

Will I be successful?
Will I be just another normal employee?
Or just a lousy one?

Well, of course I hope for the best.
Who doesn't?