Tuesday, October 14, 2014

I depend on me

If you want someone to change their ways to make you happy, how can you expect someone to change if you can't even change yourself?
Sometimes it takes time and experiences to change a person.
Maybe that's how a person can change.
Some may take a short period of time, some might take forever.
You'll never know.

Another tough lesson is that we cant rely on others to make things happen.
We can only rely on ourselves to actually make things happen because we are in control.
Relying on someone will be up to their discretion to make the call.
And sometimes both have different goals and objectives.
Then, comes disappointment.

Its a tough lesson but we all gotta start somewhere.
Sometimes we just have to keep in mind that this is life.
A life full of selfish people.

Monday, October 06, 2014

No point, really.

All those nights spend wondering and questioning everything.
Maybe I should just leave all these thoughts behind and spend more time watching TV, playing my favorite games and maybe just color my nails.
Even though I try to put those thoughts behind to focus on other things, those thoughts will still be there, just maybe they will come out later.
Maybe when you're on your bed, about to call it a night.
Maybe when you're in the shower.
Maybe when you're looking outside the window, staring into the street lamp across the road.
Some things just won't leave, especially if its about things you want to stay.

Saturday, October 04, 2014

So that's how it is

So apparently we are two boats tied together.
And I thought we are both on the same boat.
I mean, isn't that how it is?

Hmm I guess that explains a lot why some things are the way they are.

And all this while I was just living a fantasy that I made in my head without knowing that the truth is completely different from what I imagined.

I guess that's just how my life is.
Somehow I just never have the luck in finding someone who would rock along in my boat.

Am I asking too much or am I just undeserving of such requests?

I think I am asking for too much especially from someone who doesn't want to give that much.

Seriously, I'm a joke. Thinking I can have it all but I'm actually left with nothing. And still believing that I can have it all.

Thursday, October 02, 2014

And i wonder...

We're already in October.
Time passes by so quickly, doesn't it?
I wonder how I will turn out in 5 years time. Just out of curiosity.
Based on my life, currently, I feel like I'm gonna end up nowhere.
But who knows what can happen in between.
All I can hope for is to be better and have a more peaceful life.
A life surrounded by people that I love.
That's all I ask for.